ghost_azalea

Anyone else in the Christmas Spirit early this year? It’s strange. Christmas felt almost non-existent last year. And if you ever took the time to glance over at me - you could DEFINITELY tell I was a Halloween girl. But this year there is something deep, an emotion blooming in my heart. This optimism. This… inexplicable excitement for Christmas.

This Halloween feels like the least Halloween feeling Halloween but yet I feel an eerily close connection to Christmas. Sometimes the urge to just whack on Christmas music overtakes me. Suddenly the cold, mead, decor and gimmicky ornaments don’t bother me. I feel the full weight of the magic overwhelm me and life becomes worth living.

I’ve felt anticipatory anxiety, anticipatory rejection and anticipatory grief.

But anticipatory… happiness?

I have the inescapable feeling that something is going to happen. I don’t know what. But something deep in my soul tells me that despite the state of the world - there is hope.

A hope that I would follow anywhere.